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I always think about this. I mean in the end, do we actually choose to be with a person whom we love or to be with a person who loves us. I'm certain that everybody would cry out "daaaa~ of course with the person whom we love!". Yes, and because of that, I will not give up~ :)

with that, I thank u

This post is especially dedicated to my dearest friends from ipba. From the bottom of my heart,I'd like to thank all of you for...


1) the friendship that's bonded
2) the love that we shared
3) the memories that we'll cherish
4) the tears and the laughters
5) the sisterhood
6) the time we spent together
7) everything


I will surely miss you guys. I pray that we will always excel in whatever we do. May this friendship blooms eternally.


with love,
muna
b.ed tesl year 4
ipba-ucp, marjon

A big heart

I've a younger brother who had an inferiority complex problem.


You see, my brother here didn't do very well in his UPSR. The least everyone else in the family got was 4A's but he only managed 2. He pulled out of his PMR with 5A's only but was still able to land himself in a MJSC. I don't really care because he's still my brother.

You see, I wasn't always aware that my little brother here was finding it hard to ace exams. It was constantly at the back of my mind that he wasn't trying hard enough. I thought this kid was playing the fool for too long. Up till his PMR, he still only managed 5A's when he should've done that way back for his UPSR. There was once when he was in Form 3, he gave a speech. This brother of mine told his whole school, the whole audience how much he'd like to ace his PMR. Because he said everyone in the family looked down on him. He felt that everyone in our family thought he was the black sheep, that he didn't live up to expectations. That's how big a heart this brother of mine has.

On a spectrum of yes and no, i'd be honest enough to say yes Munir, you have let me down. I expected great things from you. I always looked up to ayah and how much i wanted to surpass him. I know that you always looked up to me, always admiring my medals, looking at and carressing my football boots in awe, creating your own dobi number (a number each individual student of MCKK is allocated to be written on their clothes as ID for the laundry company to identify: mine was A55) that you scribbled on all of your clothes with a permanent black marker only to make mama smile. I always thought you'd be able to breeze through exams like I was once abled to. But then again, everyone is his/her own case.

I noticed from when you were young, how easily you followed. people used to pin it on you whenever things went wrong and being you, you just took the blame. I remembered how i thought you were the 'pak turut' type, 'lurus bendul' and many more attributes that somehow made you look like a pushover. I guess that was the cue for me to recognise how special you are compared to the others in our family.

Now your 17, you've developed a much more independent identity. You're a whole person yourself, you stand up for what you believe in and for that I am proud of you. You've won just as many medals as I did, being an ace in football, you can play from striker down to goalie. You're an unbelievable natural. I've never played with or against you because I thought you were too young to play with me. But when Am came down to Jitra, i remembered us playing together; me, u, am, ijal, chot i think. cant really remember, but that was when i finally acknowledged that you had grown up. it was after that then only i started taking you to football matches at stadium alor setar. It was only then you became a real brother to me.

Now that all that limelight and fame for sports has died out, i can only wish you the best for your upcoming SPM, starting this 18th dec. I want you to know whatever your results turn out to be, no matter where you land yourself in uni, whatever you become in the future, i will always be pround of you. You are a person pure at heart, you have no malice in you, you have no envy, thats what makes you special. There are uncountable smart and clever people out there with mountains of credentials, but not many can match your purity. I wish you the best my little brother. Whatever you do, make us proud for we will always be proud of you. May my prayers be with you. Ameen.


p/s: I cried reading this. Mukhlis, my younger brother, wrote it, dedicated to our little brother, Munir... I'd like to share this with all of you...to show how much we love each other regardless.

November

Kenapa November mesti sedih?
Kenapa November mesti pedih?
Kenapa November mesti jerih?

Tiap kali November tiba,
Hati diselubungi hiba,
Mengenangkan suka duka,
Di tempuhi bersama suatu ketika.

Hari-hari November diiringi rintisan hujan,
Bagaikan tangisan hiba seorang perawan,
Yang sepi ditinggalkan,
Meniti hari-hari sendirian.

November semakin berlalu,
Hati sarat pilu,
Mungkinkah lagi kita bertemu,
Atau November adalah titik noktah antara aku dan kamu?...


p/s: Nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change...and it's hard to hold a candle, in the cold November rain (Guns and Roses: November Rain)

Cold November Rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one