Alhamdulillah.. Insyaallah :)

Today's my second sister's (kak manar's) engagement. Two engagements already in the family within this year. So that leaves me, the 3rd in the family, who is still 'not taken'. Then relatives were asking whether there'll be a third one. All i could answer was 'entah, nak kawen ngan sape? tengokla nanti. haha~'.

Seriously, it is rather irritating when people start asking the question. Come on, I've just turned 23 not even a month ago. But I also know that people are concerned and that they meant good. So sabar je la~ huhu :p Anyway, it's not even like i don't wanna get married and remain single forever! hehe..

I won't just marry anybody as easy as that because marriage bukannya only for a day, it's a life time commitment. Marriage jugak penyambung zuriat dan keturunan, so kena la usaha supaya keturunan yang bakal dilahirkan nanti merupakan keturunan yang baik-baik, diredhai dan dirahmati Allah, insyaallah. As such, apart from trying to improve myself to become a better person *tskkk...sgt susah~..huhu* I'm still in the search, so to 'the person' di mana jua kamu berada, my other half, silalah munculkan diri kamu dan memudahkan perjalanan hidup saya..hahaha :p

Insyaallah, kalau dah jumpa, adala...kalo belum, kena la terus mencari. Ngee~ :)




p/s: Alhamdulillah everything went well though we're exhausted. Selamat bertunang, kak! :)

a new found hobby :)

In the past, i never enjoyed baking as much as cooking other dishes because i was always too lazy to weigh all the ingredients required to bake a cake or cookies. I thought it was a tedious and messy process having to do all those things *aigoo~kalo dh xske th, soooo many excuses!* haha! :p

On the other hand, i enjoyed cooking dishes like masak lemak cili api, ayam msk merah and stuffs because i can always campak2 whatever ingredients into the pan without the hassle of weighing them *giler pemalas! huhu~*. Cooking compared to baking was way easier, that's what i felt.

However, beginning early this year, i suddenly developed this crave to bake cakes *yet, i only started to bake cakes early this month*. I have no idea what triggered this and frankly speaking, i'm enjoying baking as much! I love the outcome (the cake, of course) and i like the fact that i get to enjoy the cake with the loved ones after all the patience. I think baking requires patience after all. Coming up next. devils food cake :)


p/s: abg, how did the ayam masak merah go?..jadi x?..hehe :p i told mama and mama ckp, 'awat' perencah ko da bes ke?' hahahah~

woot woot!! health alert!!!

Attention to all chips@french fries lovers~ Reconsider your love for the all times favourite food (including mine.sigh~) before it's too late!


I read an article in Health Today regarding the horrendous effect of eating chips. According to the article, chips/baked potatoes (jacket potato creavers..me again~sigh.)is categorised as a carcinogen which helps to promote cancer due to the way the potatoes are cooked.

So, before it's too late, eat wisely to stay healthy!


click here to learn more about carcinogen.

ridiculously funny

Yesterday, I came across this book on a collection of 'petua' encompassing all aspects of life. I didn't know whose was it, and how did it got there. Yet, I flipped through the pages and came across this heading, 'Merawat Kaki Busuk'.

I thought the title was funny itself. Curiously (and eagerly), i read what the 'petua' would be, and ended laughing out loud until tears streamed out! I shared the 'petua' with ayah who was at that time sitting just next to me. Ayah said 'apa punya petua la th!' Muahahahaha~

Well, dear readers, i'm sure you're eager to know what the 'petua' is. Okay, i'll tell you. Cara merawat kaki busuk as recommended in the book of 'petuas', rendam kaki anda dalam clorox selama 10 minutes. Gile ke apa?!!!! hahahaha~


p/s: Additional result, selain menghilangkan bau busuk, kaki anda juga akan menjadi putih berseri-seri~ cubalah! hahahahahahaha! :P

Kejinya

Read this post, peeps..never thought someone would actually go to the extent. Insanity! Teramatla keji..huhu~

love bug

3rd December was his birthday. I dreaded that i couldn't spend the day with him, like how he did on my birthday, 25th November. So, instead of feeling bad about it, i thought that it would be great to spend time on him if i couldn't spend time with him.

To start off, i made a birthday card for him. I'm terrible in arts and crafts, so it took quite some time for me to finally come up with the birthday card. Though it wasn't that cool (the product), i enjoyed the process of making one for him. I hope he'll like it. *fingers crossed!* Oh, yeah, i got the idea to make the card from kak yuni. hehe..thanks kak yuni! :p

I also planned to bake a cake on that day. However, due to several circumstances, i was able to do so only yesterday *tskkk*. I told him about it, and he was like 'Dah seminggu i dgr u nak buat cake' hahahaha ;p But hey, i would like to announce that the cake came out acceptably fine, mr! Ayah enjoyed the cake and commented 'Sedapla Na cake nh..' hehehee :) *ayah saje je th..nak encourage me to bake cakes more often* Yet, i considered that as an achievement and i am proud of myself. Though he's far and didn't even have the chance to eat the cake, it's okay. I was satisfied that i actually spent the time on him. Probably the next time we meet, i'll bake a new cake for you, ok!


p/s: for the umpteenth time, happy belated birthday mr yorke! :)

budak hostel

Today, my sister and I went to visit Munir (my younger bro) at his hostel. We brought along a lot of food from our open house that we had, for Munir. He's stucked in the hostel due to the SPM, so bringing some food for him hopes to cheer him up a little from the tension of revising for his biology paper tomorrow. Kakak and i, together with Ammil (my youngest bro) hurriedly packed the foods, to make sure we're in time for dinner before Munir and his friends gi makan kat DS. Or else, the foods will go to waste. So, kakak drove laju-laju so that kitorg cepat sampai.

Sampai kat guard house, kakak stopped the car, kononnya nak report to the guards la before we actually entered the mrsm compound. Pak cik guard at the guard house ckp xyah report, so we smiled at the guards. hehe :p

As soon as we reached Munir's hostel block, i called him to inform him that we're there. Unfortunately he didn't answer the phone. So, without further delay, i dgn selambanya walked up to the windows of one of the hostel room (mind u, it's a boys hostel)and asked the boys in the room to call Munir for me. :p (ayah kata seb baek i didnt get caught by the warden for intruding the boys' hostel, kalo x, xpsl2 munir dpt surat buang sekolah yg ke 12...haahhaa :p)

A few minutes later, Munir came. Apparently, he was sleeping. So when he came, of cos la..muka bantal. huhu ;p I handed him the well packed nasi tomato, ayam masak merah, daging masak hitam, and etc and reminded him to study well for tomorrow's exam. I hope he'll be able to answer well tomorrow.

Being a former budak hostel all throughout my secondary schooling years, i was overjoyed everytime mama and ayah came to visit me. Mama would bring foods for me and kawan-kawan. But when there were times that mama and ayah couldn't visit me sebab meeting ke apa, i would feel sad. So now, i feel happy that i went to visit Munir at his hostel, and brought him food. I never wanted him to feel left out or sad staying in a hostel. I was a budak hostel once, and i know the feelings.

turning over a new leaf

Starting afresh is good. Turning over a new leaf. Mistakes and wrong doings are forgiven thus reducing heartaches and other negative feelings. It is tiring to have bad feelings actually. But again, we're just minute human beings..we make mistakes and we hope to learn from it.

So, starting over a new life, in a new environment sounds good, right? :)Uh, yet, i'll definitely miss my besties especially kak yuni n hani. We've been friends since we were 'hingusan', and now, look at us...huhu...we've become aunts! :p

Looking back, Dr Suraya always claimed that kak yuni and i are twins coz we're always together, wherever we go (i mean in the college compound laaa) hehe... She's like my blood related sister (although we're not) and she's always there for me during my ups and downs. Kak yuni, im missing you already..huhu.. :(

And hani, aigooo, we should adopt this tag line, "I will follow you~" (^_^) Yeah, we've been friends from IPKB, then to IPBA, flew to MARJON and back to IPBA again. Infact, Hani's bf is a friend of mine..ngeee :p (nak gak highlight~)Oh, i will awfully miss my girlfriends! huhu..

Hmm..it's kinda difficult to find friends who can get along well with us. Only birds of the same feather flocks together. Yet, making changes in life seem interesting too~ I can't wait to see what awaits me...the people, the school, the students, everything! Hope to find friends as good as the friends that i have :)

Randomness

I feel like writing something, and i feel that i have to write something. But i totally have no idea what to write about. So, here i am, typing things that i hope in the end will make some sense..or probably we can eventually see a pattern in what i write?..gagaga :p

_______________________________________________________________________________________

1) when will i get to see You again?~
2) aigoo~ i wanna see You everyday laaa..can or not? but how?..
3) madihahhhh!!! please stop kicking my feet! *uhhhh*
4) posting mana la agaknye ek?..huhu
5) i'm officially 23 years and 4 days old today :)
6) i miss You!
7) i wanna go to kL~~~or..kuantan maybe?..hehe
8) my sisters are marrying off soon..i wonder when will my turn be?.. :p
9) thank you mr grumpy@pisssed off for spending the day with me :)
10)oh, gotta go to bed now..zzzZZZ


p/s: look closely and read carefully, muna hasn't got a point to talk about..that's why she rambles: pattern seen.

lovve@loved by

I always think about this. I mean in the end, do we actually choose to be with a person whom we love or to be with a person who loves us. I'm certain that everybody would cry out "daaaa~ of course with the person whom we love!". Yes, and because of that, I will not give up~ :)

with that, I thank u

This post is especially dedicated to my dearest friends from ipba. From the bottom of my heart,I'd like to thank all of you for...


1) the friendship that's bonded
2) the love that we shared
3) the memories that we'll cherish
4) the tears and the laughters
5) the sisterhood
6) the time we spent together
7) everything


I will surely miss you guys. I pray that we will always excel in whatever we do. May this friendship blooms eternally.


with love,
muna
b.ed tesl year 4
ipba-ucp, marjon

A big heart

I've a younger brother who had an inferiority complex problem.


You see, my brother here didn't do very well in his UPSR. The least everyone else in the family got was 4A's but he only managed 2. He pulled out of his PMR with 5A's only but was still able to land himself in a MJSC. I don't really care because he's still my brother.

You see, I wasn't always aware that my little brother here was finding it hard to ace exams. It was constantly at the back of my mind that he wasn't trying hard enough. I thought this kid was playing the fool for too long. Up till his PMR, he still only managed 5A's when he should've done that way back for his UPSR. There was once when he was in Form 3, he gave a speech. This brother of mine told his whole school, the whole audience how much he'd like to ace his PMR. Because he said everyone in the family looked down on him. He felt that everyone in our family thought he was the black sheep, that he didn't live up to expectations. That's how big a heart this brother of mine has.

On a spectrum of yes and no, i'd be honest enough to say yes Munir, you have let me down. I expected great things from you. I always looked up to ayah and how much i wanted to surpass him. I know that you always looked up to me, always admiring my medals, looking at and carressing my football boots in awe, creating your own dobi number (a number each individual student of MCKK is allocated to be written on their clothes as ID for the laundry company to identify: mine was A55) that you scribbled on all of your clothes with a permanent black marker only to make mama smile. I always thought you'd be able to breeze through exams like I was once abled to. But then again, everyone is his/her own case.

I noticed from when you were young, how easily you followed. people used to pin it on you whenever things went wrong and being you, you just took the blame. I remembered how i thought you were the 'pak turut' type, 'lurus bendul' and many more attributes that somehow made you look like a pushover. I guess that was the cue for me to recognise how special you are compared to the others in our family.

Now your 17, you've developed a much more independent identity. You're a whole person yourself, you stand up for what you believe in and for that I am proud of you. You've won just as many medals as I did, being an ace in football, you can play from striker down to goalie. You're an unbelievable natural. I've never played with or against you because I thought you were too young to play with me. But when Am came down to Jitra, i remembered us playing together; me, u, am, ijal, chot i think. cant really remember, but that was when i finally acknowledged that you had grown up. it was after that then only i started taking you to football matches at stadium alor setar. It was only then you became a real brother to me.

Now that all that limelight and fame for sports has died out, i can only wish you the best for your upcoming SPM, starting this 18th dec. I want you to know whatever your results turn out to be, no matter where you land yourself in uni, whatever you become in the future, i will always be pround of you. You are a person pure at heart, you have no malice in you, you have no envy, thats what makes you special. There are uncountable smart and clever people out there with mountains of credentials, but not many can match your purity. I wish you the best my little brother. Whatever you do, make us proud for we will always be proud of you. May my prayers be with you. Ameen.


p/s: I cried reading this. Mukhlis, my younger brother, wrote it, dedicated to our little brother, Munir... I'd like to share this with all of you...to show how much we love each other regardless.

November

Kenapa November mesti sedih?
Kenapa November mesti pedih?
Kenapa November mesti jerih?

Tiap kali November tiba,
Hati diselubungi hiba,
Mengenangkan suka duka,
Di tempuhi bersama suatu ketika.

Hari-hari November diiringi rintisan hujan,
Bagaikan tangisan hiba seorang perawan,
Yang sepi ditinggalkan,
Meniti hari-hari sendirian.

November semakin berlalu,
Hati sarat pilu,
Mungkinkah lagi kita bertemu,
Atau November adalah titik noktah antara aku dan kamu?...


p/s: Nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change...and it's hard to hold a candle, in the cold November rain (Guns and Roses: November Rain)

Cold November Rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this auch a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

tall + dark + handsome?

"Emm..i prefer someone tall, dark and handsome like Andika" says Melor.

"No wayyyy! He's really not my type. I like fairer guys better...someone like...Putra" exclaims Mawar.

"What about you, Kenanga?" asks Melor.

"I don't know, really...i don't really mind about his looks...as long as we can get along well with one another and we love each other unconditionally, i'd be thankful" answered Kenanga.

.........................................................................................

Well, well, well~ How shall we begin?...

Ask any girl, who wouldn't want to date a good looking, charming guy like Edward Cullen? None.

Anyway, we will stop here and we shall continue later to allow me for more time to elaborate on the issue. Now, i need to sleep... Good night all...zzZZZZ

I miss u & I love u

Last night i skyped with my younger sister. Her name is Mardhiatul Miskiah, and we call her Atul. But me, i have a special nickname for her. I call her mok2 coz she used to be a bit chubby (compared to a family of skinny and not so skinny members) :P She's in India now, pursuing her degree in dentistry. She was so eager showing off all the stuffs that she bought for us on skype last night. She bought me a set of saree, pink in colour. Nice, but i jokingly told her that it's ugly and requested for the baby blue one (which she had bought too) hahaha! :P I miss her. I know she misses us too. I hope she's doing well and not that home sick. I know she's a strong little sister (though in real, she's bigger than me), even stronger than me coz i'm such an emotional cry baby.

This morning, while i was still sleeping, my younger brother, Mukhlis called. He's currently in Leeds, England. He's a second year medical student. As always, i was half awake when he called. But i was happy to hear from him. I miss him so much. Back in England, whenever we had the chance, we used to spend time together, either he will come down to Plymouth, the place where i studied, or i myself will go to Leeds to pay him a visit. I remember, the first time he arrived in Leeds, i traveled way up to the midlands (8 hour trip by bus) to ensure that he was okay. We did some shopping, tidied his room, unpack his luggage, arranged his things neatly in the locker, broke fast together at this restaurant (i can't recall the name), talked over things, went back late and had a good rest. I can still remember the every little things we did. I miss you, abang.

I love both my younger brother and sister. I hope they're doing well in the respective countries. I pray that they will always excel in their studies and in everything that they do. I also look forward to meeting them next year, insyaallah, when they come back for the summer break.

p/s: All the best to my little brother, Munir, who will be sitting for his SPM beginning this 18th November. I miss you and i love you.

a hundred truths

Killing time.


WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : orange juice
2. Last phone call : fahmi yorke :)
3. Last text message: dia
4. Last song you listened to : karma police by radiohead
5. Last time you cried : last week..pms..haha :p

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: errkkk..no!
7. Been cheated : yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: no
9. Lost someone special: definitely
10. Been depressed: yes...but not that severely depressed
11. Been drunk and threw up: oh, i don't drink, thank u!


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. pink
13. white
14. baby blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes!
16. Fallen out of love: no...
17. Laughed until you cried: hehehe..yes! many times in fact! :)
18. Met someone who changed you: yesssssssssssss! *wink2*
19. Found out who your true friends were: emm..yeah..
20. Found out someone was talking about you: though nothing interesting to talk about, surprisingly, YES!
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: of course :)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them
23. How many kids do you want?: the more the merrier :p hahaha! joking~ emm..seriously, i have no idea~
24. Do you have any pets: nope..but back at home, we do have cats..mama takes care of them...
25. Do you want to change your name: no, thank u! i'm proud of my name :)
26. What did you do for your last birthday: celebrated it in England with friends
27. What time did you wake up today: 7.00am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: on the phone with Mr Pissed Off :)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: 25th November! *fingers crossed*
30. Last time you saw your Mother : a few weeks back..huhu..
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: none
32. What are you listening to right now: the sound of the ceiling fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yep! former classmate at Crossland Moor Junior School, Huddersfield..his name is Thomas actually..but people called him Tom sometimes.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing
35. Most visited webpage: facebook and blogspot
36. Whats your real name : munawarah mohd izam
37. Nicknames: muna, na, ikan bilis (my younger brother calls me that)
39. Zodiac sign: sagittarius
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary: SK Jitra, Kedah...Crossland Moor Junior School, England...SK Sg Korok Baru, Alor Setar...SK Sg Kajang, Batu Pahat
42. Secondary: SMK Tun Aminah, Batu Pahat...MRSM Muar
43. Tertiary education: IPKB, Kelantan...IPBA KL...University College Plymouth St. Mark & St. John, UK
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: longggggggggg
46. Height: 160cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone: (^_^)
48: What do you like about yourself?: errr..
49. Piercings: none
50. Tattoos: no wayyyy~
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: nil
54. First best friend : a boy named Raja back in kindergarten years..haha
55. First sport you joined: track and field
56. First vacation: London :)
58. First pair of trainers: kindergarten years i think

RIGHT NOW
59. thinking something more simpler than 1+1 = : *blank mode*
60. Drinking: nope!
61. I'm about to : type a response to this question. done! :)
62. Listening to: jigsaw falling into place
63. Waiting to : see Yorke soon~ *fingers crossed*

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: for sure! insyallah :)
65. Get married?: insyaallah..but i have no idea when.
66. Career : teacher/lecturer/professional emcee/businesswoman

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes...he said my eyes tell stories..huhu
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or younger: younger! hohoho~ (^,^)
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive, please...
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship


HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nope!
77. Drank hard liquor: no laaaa~
78. Lost glasses/contacts: not yet so far..
79. Sex on first date: ish3~ never!
80. Broken someone's heart: huhu..yes...my sincerest apologies to whom it may concern... :(
82. Been arrested: never
83. Turned someone down: yes...sorry again to those concerned
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: ngee~ (^_~)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yes!
87. Miracles: yesssss! By Allah's will, anything can happen.
88. Love at first sight: yes...so first impression is always crucial
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: yes when i was a little girl...coz i believed what my teachers, Mrs. Lambert and Mrs. Burling, told me...huhu
91. Kiss on the first date: no


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/ boyfriend at a time: never
95. Did you sing today?: yes! i sing to myself and to my friends most of the time :)
96. Ever cheated on somebody's relationship?: no, i think
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: when i was 9
98. If you could pick a day from last year,what would it be?: 21st December 2008, the day i left the UK, leaving behind sooo many memories.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: honestly, yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yeah

I'm a big YELLOW blob! :)

If we were to represent this life in colours, then i'm sure it'll be multicoloured (errkk..is there such a word?). Though at times it'll be a bit messy and smudgy (from the mixing of the different colours) still, i can assure you, all the colours in the world would blend in just perfectly.

Take me, for example. I would represent myself in these different colours~

- red: when i am angry or furious with something or somebody
- blue: when i feel a bit gay, chilled and relaxed~ :)
- yellow/orange: when i'm all hyped up, adrenaline pumping and gushing through the veins..o yeahhh~
- pink: when my day is as sweet as honey~ ngee~
- white: when i feel good and angelic (cehhh~)
- black/grey: when i'm upset, moody and gloomy :(
- green: when i feel fresh and cool! oh, like in the jungle.. erkk :p


On certain days, these colours just blend together and it creates a different situation and a different feeling inside of me. Do you get what i mean?.. Hmmm..how can i explain this clearer... Okay, for instance, yesterday, the atmosphere was a bit of a greyish colour. Probably due to the Monday blues :p But out of the ordinary, i was the yellowish blob in a middle of the greyish atmosphere. I was a bit highty flighty i admit. hehe :p Even my besties pointed that out. Well, that's kinda good i suppose. At least, a little yellow blob in a grey basin won't cause any harm...it'll help to brighten up the area! *wink2*

And at a different time, i can be the big black dot in a mixture of colourful paints; pink, yellow, green, white, red, purple etc. But as the colours blend together~ tadaaaa!!! I am no longer the big black hedious dot :)

So you see, life is as colourful. You can be a cheerful person (bright yellow blob) one day, and the next, the saddest person ever existed on planet Earth (a gigantic dot, as black as ebony). But as you mix around with the people around you (perhaps your friends, family members, students etc) who may carry different feelings, aura and emotions with them (represented by the various colours), they will neutralize the imbalanced feelings or atmosphere created. Just Purrrrrfect! :)

Jamlo

Today, a good friend of mine suddenly blurted out a question, a question that i've expected somebody would one day ask.


"Muna, how does it feel to be single again?" *lebih kurang cmth laa*


My first reaction was, quick! make a guess! hehe.. I surprisingly smiled. Geee~ I actually did! :) I sincerely answered that it feels good to be single yet at times it does make me feel sad.

Now i'll list down all the good thins of being single again:

1) freedom- i can go out with anyone i like without hurting anyone in particular
2) free from commitment- ok, don't get me wrong. it's not that i don't favour
commitment, it's just that being single frees me from any commitment that i
have towards the other person. I'm no committed to anyone.
3) i get to meet new people, get to know them and eventually expand my circle of
friends.
4) i get to spend more time with my girlfriends~ meaning more night outs, more
movies, more girls night in~ o yeahh~


What about the cons?..let's list them down...

1) yes, i do feel lonely sometimes (when my girlfriends aren't around or whenever
i'm bored)
2) i (once in a while) envy my friends though this is such a bad feeling..sorry..but
really, i always try to avoid this feeling by turning it around.. Rather than
envying them, i feel happy for them that they are now happy :)
3) ermmm..ok, this point, i doubt it's relevance, but i do feel a bit panicky (being
single) at times especially when aunts or uncles start asking "muna, bila
nak kahwin nh?" i tell u, too much pressure! seriously, too much.
4) oh yes, i sometimes do wonder whether i'll even end up with anybody. huhu. i mean
look around us, there aren't many good guys left. Guys prefer staying behind bars
and in rehabs. Will i ever meet my soul mate?

Generally, i've listed down the pros and cons from my own perspective. I might be right, and i also might be wrong. Back to the topic, being single isn't that bad after all nor am I saying that it's good. I just want to make sure that whoever i end up with one day, will forever be there for me in this temporary life and the life in the Hereafter.


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~Ya Allah, berikanlah kepadaku suami yang terbaik dari sisi-Mu, suami yang juga
menjadi sahabatku dalam urusan agama, urusan dunia & akhirat...ameen~

Dizzying with the Dissies!

Around this time of the year in 2008, i was frantically engrossed in finishing up the last few chapters of my thesis which amounted of 10000+ words. My dissertation (for an hons degree) was about the use of stories to develop speaking skills among young learners. So, i had to do background research on the advantages and the disadvantages of using stories. I also had to read up on the theories of young learners' language learning etc. The dateline was on the 26th of November if I could remember. The meet ups with my supervisor, the tedious and tiring process of editing the drafts, you name it!

Seriously, life was insane back then even though that was only a dissertation for a degree programme! Stayed up during the nights (since i work best at night), slept during the day, skipped meals, tears, tears and pool of tears. Alhamdulillah, everything paid off as I got first class for my dissertation. Looking back, I am proud that I managed to go through that tough time with the endless support from my dearest family who were thousands and thousands of miles away from me. Not to forget, my beloved friends and even my ex boyfriend who kept his promise to always be there for me at all times. T_T Okay, i'm being slightly emotional here. :p But that's the truth. These people were my motivation, and i owe them.

Now, my juniors are going through the hectic and madness time of the year in trying to complete their dissertations. I read their shout outs, blog posts and I just can't help to think of the times that i went through, just like them. And my advice to them, hang on there, find your source of motivation, the urge to keep you going and to strive for excellence. Give your best shot, doa and then tawakal. Insyaallah you'll make through :)

Reflecting on relationships

I just completed reading a really good book by an ustaz who is famous for his writing, saifulislam.com. I got to know about the author and the site when i was studying in the UK. The title of the book is 'Aku Terima Nikahnya'. As catchy as the title itself, the book is a must read to all. The content is not too heavy, a pleasure to read during our spare time.

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Before this, i've always viewed marriage as one of the ways to escape from committing the sins of being in a girlfriend-boyfriend affair. But that was totally a wrong concept that had been developed. As the writer has argued, if we can't even restrain ourselves from the challenges and sins of being in a bf-gf relationship, what else the challenges after marriage; trust, resposibilities,economic crisis etc. Marriage is not always a happily-ever-after plot as depicted in movies or stories (especially those by Walt Disney production). There are the ups and downs....


(interruption: my eldest sister, kak moon, is busy applying mascara and lipgloss on me while im writing this post~ cehhh~)okay, back to business...


The same with a gf and bf affair. The sky is not always sunny, it may rain at times. The writer suggested to the singles, not to start a relationship (or even think of starting one)if we have no plan to take the realtionship one step further (i.e marriage)within at least 2 years time. Or else the relationship will become 'murky and muddy' and then there will come endless fights and quarrels that'll lead to heartaches and eventually breakup. I couldn't agree more with the author, as i believed i went through the same situation with my ex. We were together for 3 years and i ended it. But, i'm thankful that we're still friends even after all the things that we went through.


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Marriage as portrayed in this book is a stage when you see yourself as a giver rather than a receiver. You're always wanting to give the best and not expecting too much from your spouse. Marriage is also about accepting one as he/she is and complementing each other to lead a just life. I like the way the author pictured it; 'kebaikan dan kelebihannya disyukuri, kelemahannya diredhai'. How blissful!


The author also talked about the Irish culture on treating their young ones. They always take the time and effort to listen to what their children have to say. They even entertain the endless queries from their children (just like the advert by Petronas 'ayah, ni burung apa?'...sweet). They also have the time to take their kids for a stroll at the park.


Infact, I even noticed this type of culture among the Brits in the UK. It is normal to see parents walking their children at the park, young daddies pushing the stroller at malls etc. Me and a good friend of mine (kak yuni) would always observed this scenario and commented on it. We would always say 'jangan harapla nak tgk this kind of situation kat Malaysia, very rare to witness'. Then we would pray 'hopefully dpt husband mcm th, ameen'. :) You see, it is good to become observant of other cultures of the world so that we can adopt what's good from them and learn from the consequences of the not-so-good things that they do. I'm thankful to God for the opportunities.


Not just that, even among the elder couples (probably around 60's or 70's), i could still see them holding hands when they walk. Sweet!~ (^_^)On the other hand, a different situation in Malaysia, it's difficult to see married couples (after a few years of marriage, especially those with kids) holding hands when they walk. Masa couple je beriya nak pegang tangan xnak lepas~ A sad situation. *sigh~* How i wish things would be different...


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To encapsulate things, these are generally the few main ideas that i learn from my reading:

1) kita tidak perlu memulakan hubungan jika dalam jangka masa terdekat, tiada kemungkinan perhubungan itu akan dinaik taraf menjadi perkahwinan...

2) komitmen 'atas angin' yang tidak disegerakan kepada sebuah perkahwinan sering berakhir hanya disebabkan oleh emosi yang diterjemahkan ia sebagai JEMU... (oh, very true~ tskkk)

3) in a marriage, kebaikan and kelebihan our spouse haruslah disyukuri and kelemahannya diredhai...because marriage is about complementing one another for the betterment of all.

4) marriage is not all about being on cloud 9 at all times, there are the ups and downs that the married have to go through

5) parents aren't always right...listen to what your children have to say...they also have their own faculty of thoughts.

6) adopt whatever good values that we can learn from other people's culture and learn from their mistakes


Wallahu'alam~



p/s: Read the book for a clearer picture and better understanding of the ideas. I'm basically writing from my own understanding of what i read, injecting a little bit of my views ad experiences in it...happy reading! (^_^)

Berjimba bersama rakan :)

Thursday was a great day. Thanks to ijad and the others who actually planned (and joined in) for the splendid outing :)

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Today i learnt a new word from Zye; berjimba. It really suited the context of the day whereby me and a bunch of dear friends went ice skating, makan2, bowling (and even laughing at our own acts) and wrapped up the day with an awesome movie 'Papadom'.


Ice skating was fun! The last time i went for one was in Bradford, UK in 2007 (which was quite a long time ago). So, having to skate again after such a while gave me shivers because i could imagine myself thumbling and slipping all over the place! :p In fact, my thighs were hurting from the previous day's futsal match that we had...so i was undecided whether to skate or not. However, since that would most probably be the last time for us to have fun ice skating together, i finally tagged along. Thank goodness, i didn't fall while ice skating. Ngeee~ :) We really had fun.


We went for a dinner at a kopitiam. We were obliviously starving at that time, and so ordered ourselves delicious food and tasty drinks. I had beef fried rice together with hot honey jasmine tea. I love the aroma and the taste of the tea...I can still smell it..hehe :p Others ordered thai style fried rice, pattaya fried rice and etc.


After makan2, we went for a round of bowling. I teamed up with gg, kak yuni, fuzzy and also zye while the other team; ijad, fara, auni, hani and nedd. Fara was the star of the day since she striked a plenty of times which evetually made them the winning team..kudos guys! :) Even though my team lost to fara's team, we still enjoyed ourselves and laughed our hearts out at our own acts. Oh yes! And of course, we even had time to pose while bowling.


To wrap up the fun-day-out, we decided to go for a movie. Papadom was of course our choice since we received sooo many good comments about the movie. As described, the movie was interesting. A mixture of feelings; sadness & laughters. I loved it.

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Overall, it was a great day out with a bunch of great friends. I hope i've described the meaning of berjimba correctly :p Can't wait for another round of berjimba bersama rakan2! (^_~)

A change...

I get bored quite easily. I want something fresh and new. I want a change, and that is why i'm shifting my blog from friendster's blog to this one. It still holds the same title, a little of something. So, holla readers! :)

Heedlessness

Heedlessness affects the faculty of thought and restrains us from intellectual thinking. Apparently, we hardly take the time to engross in deep thinking. Often, we choose to be at a heedless state to escape ourselves from the many responsibilities that are ‘burdened’ upon us. But, have we ever thought how; long and how far can we run away from those responsibilities?

If we try to reflect back and think of all the little happenings in life, we would see and marvel at the wonders of God’s creation. Sadly, we frequently commit ourselves in unneccessary thinking that leads us to the misapprehension of our roles and responsibilities as a being. For instance, we always find the time to reflect on worldly affairs such as on our endless love and relationship issues that are not that much worth of thinking compared to issues that should be of priority such as ‘what should i and shoudn’t i do today to make me a better person’, ‘what would have happened if i woke up this morning without the ablity to speak or see? am i prepared for that?’.

Unfortunately, being in a heedless state is surprisingly a cultural heritage. Have we ever encountered a situation whereby we think a lot about an issue that is worth of thinking, but then, the people around us would ask us not to think too much about it? Well, i have. So, i believe it is crucial for us to encourage deep thinking as it may lead us back to the realization of our roles and responsibilities as a being in God’s world. And hopefully from there, we will try to do something, make a small move to acheive God’s blessings and to plant the seeds for the crops that we can harvest and benefit in the Hereafter.